You've done this before..

It might be year three nerves, it might be my confidence..

*Lizzie you're fine, just be loud and clear*

On the day..
"I just realised normally when I do presentations it's about myself"
When I read a presentation I write a script that I can read from as I still struggle to remember something's..

We had our dissertation proposal yesterday and it's something like 10% of our final grade
(No pressure)

Before I stood up my sugar level dropped to the point where my friend had to give me about 5 Oreos..

I've always struggled with my sugar levels and yes I have probably been tested for diabetes at some point.

Anyway
As I stood up to present but my nerves kind of got the better of me,

I talk so fast in general and I was told to slow down but it just blurted out of my mouth..

I held my head high in preparation to seem as if I knew what I had researched

Like I said this time it wasn't about myself/my stroke so it was very difficult to know every bit of detail.

"Don't die of ignorance"
Those alive in the 1980's may remember this campaign..

(I hope anyway)
It's about AIDS and how to prevent it..

I showed an advert that I thought would give me an opportunity to calm my nerves, definetly didn't work, I just found myself miming the words to it
Keen?

Nope just really intrigued by the whole subject matter.

Dear Diary..

Dear diary
Today I learnt to stand, balance and brush my hair all using one hand! My OT says I might be able to go home, they just need to talk to my doctor.. I can't wait! I'm so excited to be at home where I belong..

Dear Diary
Today I found a notebook full of diary posts written by myself three years ago, lists of things I could and couldn't do, I read several sentences that expressed my happiness and excitement to return home, now a place I call my mums, now a list of reflection and positivity.
My world is different, surrounded by different things such as; feelings, confidence and much more, so much more that it would take days to write and I wouldn't want to bore you all with that..



" I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax,and stop trying to hold on to it, and it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude" *American Beauty - 1999*