I just want to be normal

I'm sick of seeing everyone's photos of how they 'feel amazing' about how much weight they've lost.. 

I tried to see if I could do that Charlotte crosby's dvd to loose weight until I noticed she was jumping & punching the air with both hands.. 

I can't do that. 

I can't even walk properly, I'm sick of looking in the mirror, simply because I hate how I look now & probably will forever