My next goal..

My next goal is to be independent; live independently, look after myself independently and try to pick up where I left off.. 

I was aiming to leave home and move out, although money was the biggest issue stopping me.. 

Now it's the fact I have a really serious brain injury

'No liz, you've had a brain injury it's not as straight forward for you to do that'

'No liz, your brain doesn't function as quickly as that persons' 

So now I'm stuck..

What do you do when; you want to leave, go away and just achieve something you know would make you happy. Not just from the outside but from the inside I'd be insainly happy. 

'You can move out when you're ready' is what I get... 

Aswell as

'Only you know when you're ready Lizzie, it's your choice, your life'

Is it though?.. 

Because it seems when I make (try to make) my own decisions I get told I'm wrong or I'll get a questionable look that instantly makes me question if I'm making the right choice.. 

That's not fair? That's not life? 

It's my brain and my recovery, how would you feel if you wanted to be independent but we're being stopped by people trying to give you a 'better opinion' 

Let me live & grow 

That's life.. Well atleast that's what I thought about life before my stroke, not now.. Now I'm stuck feeling like any choice I make is going to be wrong, I used to get asked why I higher the tone of my voice after everything I said 'Liz, you sound asif you're asking a question everytime you speak' 

I stopped it.. But now it's come back.

'How do you feel liz?'

I'm;scared, I'm lost and I'm unsure of how to achieve what I want out of life. 

And my neuropsycologist is leaving so who will I have then?