Lost disfunctional confused tired & damaged

My life so far is amazing for so son who's suffered a major stroke as big headed as it sounds, I can do what I like and react how I feel is 'normal'

My plans;

'So Liz, what are your plans for the future?'

'Do you know what, I don't have or want any, maybe to just continue living life as good and enjoyable as I can with what's happened to me'...

My goals;

My main goals are to get back to uni to create a better social life again, be surrounded by people who won't judge me because of what I'm now like, they'll accept me.

My worries;

I know it's hard to return to work after a stroke but I'd like to say I was one of the small majority that do,

I worry that I'll always be the odd one out and if I have a family my children will be frightened of how I am because everyone else will be normal

I worry that I could get another life changing illness or something 

I worry that my arm or hand will never work again, it's been a year common' brain bloody reconnect the thing! I'm bored of the shoulder ache, the constant having to hold it to my body so no one laughs..

My brain;

You've reconnected so much recently you've given me ways to understand people and react to people, I know you're still recovering because I feel the random tingles you give me when I think really hard, I feel the heart beat you have, are you creating a new life for me? Will you bring me back fully...