'I'm really impressed, are you proud?'

Oh errr yeah I suppose I am,

I smiled with the throat clench feeling of nearly crying ( happy tears)

Uni is like a new test and goal everyday.. 

Not like the old ones from physio or ot or my neuropsychologist..

I have to get up extra early, get ready, get my stuff together and walk to uni, 

The walk takes 20 minutes, I quite enjoy it..

I get to listen to music and hold my head high as I walk through the uni sign..

I have a mentor called gaby,

She's quite old but so lovely..

'I'll meet you once a week everything we talk about is confidential unless I feel concerned about your mental health'

'Okay.. I have had a history of self harming diagnosed by my doctor but I'm really happy now and that was months ago'

She told me she views everything in a positive way..

'If it's raining I always think of a positive, at least I don't need to water my garden!'

She smiles a lot too...

I like her and having someone to show my work to and receive information and useful comments is really helping.

I write every note down from all my lectures which are two hours long, I have ocd with uni stuff;

Pink folders, sectioned folders for designated sections, different coloured pens and a diary..

I love it, the ocd of trying to fill up empty days has gone, now I'm busy everyday.

My learning support assistant is so lovely, she checks if I need any help all the time.

My class 'mates' are so kind and everyone's so different, not trying to be the version of 'normal' I spent so long trying to recovery to be as I aspired to it.

My recovery is on a new level;

Building my future and starting to look ahead.

I have so much support from friends family and my boyfriend.

A lot of you knew the situation I was in last year and how abusive it was I definitely wouldn't of been allowed to do what I am now.

When I'm writing my briefs down I always weirdly write; 

'Task goal and aim'

This is because the first part of my recovery everything needed to be a task and aim to be a goal.

This time it's an exam I'm setting for myself, no one watching over me forcing me to 'recover more'