A lost world

I'm visiting my old uni tomorrow, to give books back & formally leave..

I'm meeting Hugh? 

I have an image of a guy who was a course leader, is that Hugh? 

How do I politely say 

'Oh my god! I recognise you now! Stupid memory loss' ha..

I'm playing it over in my head to the point where I'm scarred & missing Towie (this is  rare) 

Those who go to uca or study at Canterbury college will know how intimidating the dreaded walk is past the people who smoke outside the college entrance is.. 

This time I'll get more looks than I did before.. 

What if someone I knew from my past life sees me but I don't recognise them, do I smile?

I'm being told to not force myself to be stressed.. 

'Liz you can cancel'

'Liz you need to stop over thinking'

I've been studying at uca since I was 17, 

Extended diploma then the foundation course then my uni course.. 

I literally haven't walked the journey since I stumbled home suffering a Tia (unrecognised) at the time.. 

When do I leave to be there in time? 

What if going back there makes me cry? As it'll bring back hundreds of amazing memories.. 

All stuck in a lost world to me now.. 

Is it going to look the same as I've prepared images in my head of what I'll see and be faced with, 

Apparently there's a link to my blog & my story where I used to study my extended diploma, what if they've decided to hang up 

Fast posters in order to prevent anything like this happening?

I'm not ready for uni yet..

Probably never will be again.. 

Okay that's a lie, maybe when they decide it's not gonna be £9000 a year I'll happily join..

The same course? No..

The same campus? No.. 

But what I do know is;

I'm not going to rush myself in order to fail.. Not again anyway, 

Breathe Lizzie breathe..

Oh and how do I carry a notepad And books to uni while covering the shameful arm I now live with.. Incase they laugh.